I can't stop thinking about him There is this guy who I have a major crush on. He is a good friend of four years and I think he's the one who made me realize my sexuality. He is so cute and he has the greatest ass, like seriously sculpted by Michelangelo . But back on topic, lately I have been having a hard time staying away from him. I can't tell you how many times I find my arm wrapped around his shoulders or the times I have just randomly hugged him. There was one time where we got drunk and I was just hanging off of him the entire night, like seriously it was bad. I felt so embarrassed and we didn't talk with each other for a while after that.:bang: I have also caught myself many times trying to kiss him or reaching for his dick. I don't think he notices the last two but he definitely notices everything else. I want to stop but whenever I see him it's like I'm no longer in control.:help: I just like him so much. What I'm asking is how do I control this? I really like him but this really isn't fair to him because he is straight and has no attraction for me whatsoever. I feel ashamed I keep doing stuff like this because it makes my friend very uncomfortable but I can't stop. It's like it just happens. I feel like he is starting to avoid me because of this and I really don't want us to drift apart, he is one of my best friends and I don't know what would happen if I lost him. Any input would be greatly appreciated.
Does he know how you feel? Granted he probably suspects, but maybe you should be upfront about it. As for controlling your urges, I recommend distraction. Try to find someone else who catches your interest, if possible.
He most likely know how I feel. As per controlling my urges :I have tried to look at other guys, I have tried porn, I have tried literally anything to take my mind off of him. But it just doesn't work.
I get how you feel to some extent. I was crushing on this girl and when we were drunk I acted like a right creepo, hanging off her all the time and coming right close to her face while we were talking so we could almost kiss. And in the day I would just never let her get on with anything she needed to do and give her way too many compliments when I'm usually the sort of person who teases my friends bad. Anyway, she started getting a little annoyed at me, mostly because we are supposed to be studying in the time we're usually talking and she doesn't get her work done but I can't work out whether she noticed a little too. Though with girls I think we do this sort of stuff more anyway so I probably seemed to just be weirdly clingy. Then recently I discovered another girl I find bot who I can never talk to in the same way cos she won't allow herself to be distracted, is actually bi. So now trying to constructively not distract my other friend and work out when I can talk to this one without disturbing her Zen focus too much. Since there's actually a chance there.
