if some1 you like told you they just wanna try...

Okay so im in my middle 20s and I always lived as an asexual but things are getting very confusing lately and I dont know what i am anymore. So, there is this girl I met last year, she lives in another country and im gonna visit her soon. I have very strong feelings for her but not sure if its in a sexual way. She's bi and seems to like me too. If I can, im going to try to see how far can we get but im so afraid because since i always thought i was asexual, i never had sex before, and actually i am not sure im able to get all the way, in my fantasies i can and enjoy it but who knows...

My best friend told me it wouldnt be a good idea to tell her anything about this because its not that i want a serious relationship in which we can go step by step, i dont have the time (id love to but circumstances suck)... and well my friend thinks if i tell her im a virgin being the age i am, she might see it as sth strange and i would lose the chance... and i actually really like her. But if i dlnt explain her everything I will be sooo nervous :s So, my question is:


If someone you like and who has made it clear she likes you too, and who is in her middle 20s told you shes a virgin or that she always thought to be asexual but wants to try to have sex with you, how would you feel? would it turn you off?would you feel used?

 

Thanks. I also think itd be the best for me but im so scared of her reaction... Btw I never thought something like this could be considered hot tbh xd but well I think depending on how you put it.

And yes I might be demisexual also thought about that... but well there are maaany factors added to my confusion. Its good to know that asexuals may have and enjoy sex too, if I happen to be definitely asexual I hope I can.

 

aaaaw well you never know! there must be more people in my situation out there

I told my therapist yesterday and basically thats what she said, that she may take it as a compliment. The day is coming and I really think id like to tell her if something happens. I made a script for myself, i know ill be very nervous and will barely follow it but it makes me feel safer lol
Im telling her ONLY if we kiss or make out or something like that:

Since we are sharing our hotel room it is possible that if we get drunk (which im sure i will because *aaagh nervous*) she skips all the previous steps and wants to get directly into it in which case I may decide to stop her, but maybe I feel like to go on. Then I would first stop her, and tell her the same speach but instead of "i want to go on with this I would say I want you to make love to me because i think that is a turn on so I dont think she goes "wait, id rather not" in that situation.

Would you change something? would that work for you?

thank you ^^