I've never fallen for someone so hard so fast. We'll call her A. She's genderfluid (doesn't mind she/her pronouns) and we're in German class together. We clicked almost instantly. I've only known her since September, but we're very close. We have a lot of common interests and there is just this spark there that I've never felt so intensely with any person. She doesn't like me romantically, my friend found a way to ask her without her knowing I liked her. She's a senior, and I'm a freshman in high school. Realistically, the age gap is way too large, I know that. A is adorable, she's a beautiful person inside and out. More than romantic attraction, I feel such an insanely intense pull towards her, this desire to be a part of her life. I want to protect her and love her and be there. I've had numerous crushes before, but none as fast forming and strong as this. I just needed to vent, I'm dumbstruck right now. Yet, I wish that I could just stop liking her. We realistically don't have a chance, and she's going to have to worry about college after this year. But I'm like a lost puppy around her. I don't know how to deal with these feelings.
Aw, honey, if this last more than 4 months it's considered love which isn't good when it won't work. I'm so sorry. You met your soulmate but I don't think she met hers.
