Just need to process something aloud for a minute. It really sucks putting distance between yourself and a friend, even when it's the right thing to do. But I have to do it. I've had a really great friend for a while now. Maybe more than that. I worshiped him. I didn't realize I did for the longest time, but I did. Yes, I was sexually infatuated at first, but that passed and it became other things. He could do no wrong. He was perfect. Now, though, I see his faults, or at least some of them. But more than that, I recognize that while he has been my "best" friend, I'm definitely not his. He doesn't treat me badly, but he has a very large circle of friends, and I am simply a small part of it. And I'm definitely not his best friend. So all that said, I need to put some distance between us. It hurts me already, but it must be done. It sucks.
