I've touched on this on another thread but I'm posting it here because I wanted some feedback on it from different people. I mentioned on it how it happens, but I never really received why it happens. Like I've said before I'm a 24 year old Hispanic guy and I'm from Texas--South Texas to be exact. Anyway, it's been recently that I've came out and admitted to myself that I'm bi curious. The "feeling" I describe as a mixture of platonic/emotional/sexual feelings towards specific close male friends. The platonic/emotional/sexual feelings vary at times. The specific close male friends I've felt some "feelings" towards have been for the most part White, youngish/boyish, blonde or dirty blonde/grey haired, middle to upper class, not really preppy. As I've said in previous posts, the feelings started when I had roomed in a hotel with a guy named AM in August of 2010. And he was this rich White blonde haired kid from Northern VA. I was this lower income Hispanic kid from South Texas. And we were about to start our first semester of college at this private college in Dallas-Ft.Worth. I felt acceptance and stuff that this kid saw me as an equal because when I was around that area a month and a half prior, I felt like I didn't receive that acceptance. It's hard to describe the feelings I had because I felt some platonic feelings that were strong, it didn't seem emotional or sexual at the time but it took a while to grow. It's hard to define it as a feeling or an attraction because I've felt a preference or inclination towards 18-21 youngish looking White blonde, middle-upper class guys. I mean I'm unsure if it some internal racism or something because most of the guy friends I've had the past 5 years have been White for the most part. Maybe it's my attempt to "whiten" myself, I don't know. Or maybe I've had the mental image in my mind that this is my type that I like or maybe it's all three. I'm just new to all this and I just wanted some feedback. I'm unsure why I've had feelings towards close male friends like that--or towards guys that fit that type I like. Because I've noticed I'm beginning to have some preference towards any guy that fits that type or close to it. I don't consider myself gay as I do prefer women, but I'm noticing that whenever I'm not near the close male friends that fit my preference those feelings or transferred towards guys that fit my preference I encounter. So I'm unsure if I'm becoming bi sexual or borderline bi sexual? I'm unsure why I have some preference towards White guy and youngish ones. I've theorized maybe because I'm 24, I want to cling to be young for a while and also I didn't really have a good time when I was 18-21 that much. I've had a thought it's about "Being young." It's hard to explain. Maybe some guys could provide feedback on that too.
