Hello all. I do believe i am straight but im kinda confused right now, i always being curious about my same sex, but just to compare, i haven't have that many chances, but i never tough i was gay yes i had have a lot of curiosity but thats it . something happen 4 months ago and it still killing me, i went to this party and i never was so drunk in my life, first time in my life i blackout i cant remember a lot of stuff, only think i remember is when i woke up i was next to my friend in a couch masturbating him and i think he had an erection. some people came and i stop, here the thing this was 4 months ago i still friend with him we are very close now, and i see him as friend thats it, but i just cant believe we still friends and he acts like nothing happened, this is killing me maybe he doesnt remember? no way he had an erection and he was less drunk than me. so why did he forgave me or does he undertands that i lost control of myself and why he didnt moved if i was doing that??? and why i did this! i don want to lose my friendship with him. but i dont know is for the better because i felt like i cross the line. what do you guys think. i know is being 4 months i just want to know what happened that night, why i did it, why he acts like nothing happened ? why he didnt move if he is straight too? i need some answers please, i need to know this in order to be able to continue my frienship with him and my life since i cant even ask him. thank you!
Hello and welcome, If you feel you guys are close and you are comfortable you could ask him if he remembers what happened that night. If you really gave him a hand job (you masturbated him, not yourself) and he was sufficiently sober to realize what was going on then he probably was OK with it. It does not mean that he is necessarily gay or bisexual. How old are you guys? I have heard that it's not that uncommon for boys in early teens to experiment with each other in that manner. Even if he is straight he might have been curious or then what happened just was not a problem for him. Not every straight guy hates gays. Perhaps your real problem is about figuring your own sexuality. Are you sure you are as straight as you think? I'm not saying you are necessarily gay or bi but it's something you might want to consider.
we are both 22, and to be honest i dont feel like sleeping with guys. i really try to consider that option and i am notnreally into guys i dont want to sleep with another guy. and like i said i blackout that night. thats why i am freaking out now.
Why is this incident then bothering you? Your relationship to your friend remains undamaged and you don't feel like sleeping with guys. Would it be a problem if you friend was gay or bi? People have a lot of ideas that feel much better when they are drunk. Since you blacked out we can't be even sure if you did it on your own initiative or if your friend dared you to do it. In the end it doesn't really matter. Being gay or bi or straight is state of mind. If you don't have desires to have romance or sex with guys then you are not gay even if you gave another dude a hand job. There is also considerable empirical evidence that otherwise straight guys may engage in homosexual behavior under certain conditions, primarily in sex segregated environments such as prisons, boarding schools and even strict islamic countries. Just this once incident does not automatically mean you are gay.
