hi, so... I met this guy on an app and I felt a connection with him, once hehe s just like me in a lot of things... I will met him soon but we already treat each other like lovers (we've even planned to live together haha like it's been just 1 week I met him... I also have ocd with obsessive thoughts (about everything) ... today I forgot to take my medicine and I feel my heart just drops sometimes thinking im in a relationship (and planning about marriage and probably would have expected no freedom and blablabla) It will be like my real first gay experience (in every way) and I feel sorta insecure. I may say everything I forgot to take my pills, I feel lot of anxiousness and I start to think a lot... I was wanting him so badly, and we made a lot of plans, but today I felt like we are going too fast... I'm even wondering if worth to be in love (once I have a free spirit) what this could mean? is this childish (once it's like my first love), am I going too fast (I also come out 1 month before, so imI so so so fast at this thing), could be somehow this be related to my ocd status (once. when I remember to take my pills. correctly, i rarely feel this way).... I dontd want to hurt him... I feel my mind changes day by day because of my ocd issues... please advicea. thank u ps: funny that yesterday I was planning to post how good I was feeling about him, and that I was in love
