So I don't know in witch category to write this but anyways. 2 days ago one of my friends came out to me and me too and she said that she's bi too and I feel like we have a better friendship and that we're more closer since that cause we weren't before that. She also told me that she went out with a guy and a girl before. I tought she was lucky cause she got to experience that and not me. The problem is that I really don't see myself with a guy I'm not imagining myself being a girl in the couple and I don't even know how I would be but I do like guys and had crush on guys. But I really see myself with a girl I just really wanna experience that but I always felt like if I do date a girl that I would not be just a normal girl or whatever in the couple. Cause I always wanted to treat a girl like a guy does example: doing suprises, offering flowers, open a door to a girl or whatever all these things. It's like I don't see myself as a girl in a relationship. I've always tought that if I was trans I will be a guy and date guys and I might more see myself like that and more see myself dating a girl and that I'm a guy. I feel like that makes me more trans and makes more sense to me.
If you want to "treat a girl like a guy does," but otherwise are comfortable with yourself physically and socially, that wouldn't really make you trans. Gender roles are largely social constructs, and there are plenty of female-female relationships in which one partner is more masculine and the other more feminine.
I know that but I've been struggling with my gender for maybe 2 years now not because of that but for other things...
To be honest, when the time comes for you to be in a relationship, you'll know what to do. But don't rush trying to find love, love will come to you.
Well every sense I'm little I always had that feeling but I didn't know what that meant until now since I'm a little kid I never felt like the other girls but I didn't know what that meant until now but I've made a mistake I was stoping to be that girl that was like a "guy" and I forced my self to be like the other girls cause I was not proud of myself but I still was still having that feeling until I decided to stop and be who I want to be and when I did I started questioning myself and it's been two years but now I'm really confused more then before I feel like I'm not meant to be born as a girl and I know I will never be like the others but it clicked in my head and I just all understood that feeling but I'm still confused like I really wanna wear guy clothes and get a hair cut (I finally got it) and I feel so much comfortable and myself but I'm still confused (it's hard to explain) I know the I don't wanna be a girl but I'm not sure if I'm trans or non-binary I know I need to explore things but I'm still confused I feel like I'm in the middle of everything there is some days that I think "okay I guess I'm trans that's it" some "ok I'm non-binary I'm in the middle I get it" or some "I'm not girl but I'm what?" So it's like I can't make a decision every day my brain is different
