Mom Drives Me Nuts, Want To Move Out, But I Feel Guilty

My mom is really nice and all, but... She really annoys me sometimes. Much unlike me, she's about the most social person I know, and she just won't ever stop talking, even when it's obvious that I don't want to talk - she doesn't care about whether I want to talk or not, she just keeps on talking, talking, talking... And it gets to me, especially when I'm not feeling well. She makes me feel worse then.

So I've been thinking for a while that I'd prefer to live alone. But there's a problem... I feel guilty about moving out. On the one hand I'm thinking that maybe she'd be able to move on more with her life after I move out (she dotes on me a lot and I know she treasures me), and also I think that having this cold, distant version of me around maybe is just hurting her, but she's also sickly in many ways and I feel bad for her. Me I'm mentally ill and I can't seem to snap out of it, so it's not like I'm much help anyway, but at least sometimes if she's particularly bad I'll go buy her a pizza or something to make sure she eats. I'm worried about how she'll do if I move out. I feel like I'm doing something bad to her.

I also feel guilty in that in that case I'd have to apply for additional benefits to pay the rent for an apartment, since I'm unemployed (and not in school) at the moment.

I don't know quite what to do...

 

Thanks. I'm rather the sensitive type and the type who's guilty about pretty much everything I do, so making decisions like these can be hard on me sometimes. But yeah, maybe I'll start trying and look around for options.