So few years ago, my sister found some porn/some articles about homosexuality on my computer and she was really shocked by them. I was having a class in the university, when I got a text: I am disgusted and shocked by your perversions, I found gay stuff on your lap top... Something along those lines. I was pale and terrified. I called her, she was furious and soon afterwards I got home and I confronted her. I was trembling I guess, but I think she didn't notice it. I never understood what she had saw, but I somehow convinced her that I am not gay (I won't get into details, they don't matter). I was traumatized by this. Ever since that day I would suffer in silence every time she would make a homophobic comment about something on television or about a person we know. I know she suspects I am gay. I can feel it. But she enjoys manipulating me, she is very cunning. Today we got into a fight (we do it so often nowadays). I told her that she is full of hatred about everything, which is causing her inner torment. She went silent and she just asked me whether I feel guilty about anything. Whether I am hiding something... She does these guilt trips very often. The other day for example, she entered my room and suddenly started acting all weird because one of my hands was covered with a blanket (along with the rest of my body), and the other was using the remote. She went crazy... I guess she thought I was masturbating or something! Which I wasn't... I am getting increasingly paranoid and anxious about being closeted! I just want to tell her and my parents and be done with it! Although I fear they might kill me... Any thoughts on her behavior!?
My story has a lot of similarities but instead of it being a sister, mine was a psycho brother. My brother had signed a lease for this new condo but like every place he ever had, he did not want it because he blew all of his money on drugs and until he got his next check, he would go and live off my mom. At the time, my lease was up on my place and I was looking for a new place on my side of town and his condo was in close vicinity as the members of my family which drew a huge concern for me. Actually, since the place was practically brand new, it was very nice and modern and the rent was very affordable to say the least. He talked me into taking the place so that he could move in with my mom as well as saving his butt from being sued. Unfortunately, things went sour before long. Unknown to me, he had kept a set of keys to the place and one evening while I was working my second job, he and a few of his friends broke in and robbed the place. Just so happen that one of the neighbors close by saw them with my belongings in their hands and he even took pictures of them. In relation to your story, the second job I had, I was employed as a bartender for a gay club and one of my duties was that I took pictures of all the male dancers that were featured weekly at the club. The owner chose me for this job because he knew I had a great relationship with all the dancers and he knew they would have no problem taking pictures for me which they did not. However, not only did they take pictures for the owner, they also took a different set of pictures for me which the majority of them were totally nude. I kept these pictures in a private, locked photo album and when he broke into the place, he took the album and had managed to break the lock off the album. I had hid this album in a special suitcase but how I discovered he took the album was that he took the pictures to my family and because I had decided to press charges against him, he took the album and showed the pictures to my whole family. Needless to say, not only were my family upset about the pictures but they all attacked me about pressing charges against him. My mom even went so far as to tell me that she wished she had flushed me down the toilet when I was born instead of keeping me. I was so hurt and devastated with pain that I moved far away and made sure none of my family had any contact with me whatsoever.
