Is he gay for me or am I just being hopeful?

Long story short, I'm gay, but in the closet. I met this guy at school who I've definitely fallen for over the last couple of months mainly because for whatever reason I had this idea in my head that he sees me in the same way. I'll start with the negatives just to get them out of the way-he talks about hooking up with girls a lot, has used 'gay' and 'f***ot' as negative words for people, and he also talked about this one guy in his fraternity that is gay poorly, asking why he would join a frat. However, those things aside, he has referred to guys as "hot as hell" and attractive before, apparently talked about me to his friend for a really long time at lunch, and just kinda gives me different vibes than a lot of other guys do when he's around me. Do you guys think my mind knows something about him and that's why these feelings are here? I'm very embarrassed to have them and really hope I don't end up doing something that would hurt myself.