So. About a year ago I met a bunch of new people who quickly became very close friends. One of them is an amazing girl, that even quicker became my best friend. I started developping feelings for her about three or four months after I met her and even told her, but she told me she was too unsure to start anything, we stayed as close as we were though. Now, we don't exactly live close to each other, it's about 6h on a train, so we don't get to meet up much. When she came over for a bunch of days like a month ago, we both were incredibly affectionate till stuff escalated a little and we started making out. So now we're kind of dating. Which is absolutely lovely, don't get me wrong, I'm just kinda...scared of everything I guess? We're both as inexperienced as it gets, we were each others first kiss, and to be honest...I think she could do way better than me. Like, she is this gorgeous, athletic, intelligent ball of adorableness and I'm a fat chick (and not like chubby. I am seriously overweight.) with a mediocre at best face that doesn't know how to deal with people and life in general. While I sometimes think it would be best if shed just search for someone that actually plays in her league, I think it might crush me if she left? I feel like I'm holding her back from gaining experience with someone that is worth spending her time on and I'm kinda wondering if that's normal for a first relationship or if that's my brain being an asshole again?
Oi! Stop talking like that! Your body is just the wrapping that the gift that is you comes in. She's interested in the gift not the wrapping. And by the sounds of it, she really likes the gift. Remember, she didn't have to become your friend and then your best friend and then your girlfriend. Nobody forced her. She CHOSE you. Ok?
