in love with my best friend and hes straight, i think....

Ok, first time posting. This is probably the best place to talk about my predicament.

I met this guy in high school in year 9 (15 years old) and we've been best of friends since then. He is pretty much the best friend ive ever had in my life and he has told me he feels the same way about me on multiple occasions (usually when we're high). last year over the summer break we were hanging out together a lot, I was staying over at his place all the time. That was around the time i started having feelings for him, it was really killing me inside and i just had to tell him to get it off my chest. When I told him he didn't react well at all. He wasn't scared of me or freaked out, he just didn't know what to do because he says he is 90% straight (wants to lose virginity to a girl). We both agreed that it was best to take a small break from each other. After that, things seemed to become normal. we were best friends again and it was awesome. But now the feelings for him are back and they're a lot stronger than before. The thing that tipped the balance for me was when he was slightly drunk at a party and a girl asked if he was gay, he was quite into this girl and he said "I'm straight, but maybe if i was really drunk or high and i discovered something about myself....."

I'm not sure if this is a sign or not. i mean, he said it in a very truthful manner and when i was sitting right next to him.


I just don't know what to do, i love him more than anything in the world and i don't want to mess things up.


Any help is appreciated. I know there are no answers to this question but just a bit of advice would put my mind at ease.

 

He has said on many occasions that he doubts his sexuality. I think all i can do now is just be best friends with him and just see if anything develops.