Hello everyone, let me start with sharing a little about myself. I will be twenty three in like another three months and for the most part life is good. I would say the only thing I want is to try and be in a relationship with another guy. I have wrote post before asking how to meet guys and all. I now have realized that I'm the only thing holding myself back. I want to date but then again I don't. I know I'm gay and there's no shutting that off. even my mother knows and I have never come out to her. Parents just know these things but outside of my home I don't think I could tell anyone I'm gay. I work with a fair amount of gay guys, none of which I like in that way and even to them I wouldn't say anything. When ever asked I never deny it but I never say that I am. I might just say thats a rude question or nothing at all. Now I don't want to sound conceited or anything but I'm an attractive guy. So I know I would just have to take that first step but I don't know how and I'm a bit afraid too. Once in a while I will get approached by a guy and that never ends well. I tend to shut down completely on them or friend zone them in the place of no return. The guys I might actually like are the ones that I stop talking to. I don't know whats wrong with me? how can I meet someone if there is a part of me fighting against it? I don't let people get close outside of work or school and I have so little friends, you could say I don't have any. I sometimes think that if a tell people I'm gay, they will start to have these preconceived notions of me and that could be part of the reason I don't tell anyone. I have to start somewhere. I need to make real friends and start dating, I need help.
You could be right but not having a relationship isn't my problem its being able to even get to that point in my life where I could be.
