Hello everyone! I hope I am in the right place to gain a little insight on a personal situation we are experiencing in our relationship. (I am straight and my boyfriend identifies as straight as well). We have been together for a year, and things got very serious very fast. The more time we spent together, he opened up how he has battled with substance abuse issues and what seems like depression for a few years now. We are 30 years old. The reason I am writing this is because we live together and have a loving healthy relationship. He is a very good looking guy who has been with a lot of women, I believe even strippers. He comes off very macho and masculine. The reason for my post, we share a MacBook trying to keep costs low while both in law school and I had to download a syllabus, and as anyone who owns a MAC knows, the downloads list pops up as soon as its finished loading. What pops up? "Big Ass Shemale All Stars", like 5 different movies. He had left abrubtly to give a friend a ride and was on the computer all morning. I thought maybe it was a mistake, and how curiosity killed the cat, I looked at the history. First it started off with lesbian porn, then it transitioned into ALL transgender women pre-op, still with penises in tact. I saw this and my heart dropped. I asked him about it, and he told me he has a fetish with tgirls. He loves porn and said he feels like he got into some kinky stuff because normal stuff doesn't have that shock value anymore. He also told me it is his porn of choice now, but does not think of it as men, he identifies them as women with a domination shock factor, their penis. He also told me that he had messaged one on Craigslist 2 years ago, and told them girls with cocks turn him on and he's into being the girl (whatever that means) We have a great sex life and I'm open as far as my limits go. He does like anal stimulation more than any guy I've been with and I am up for new things. He comes from a very strict christian family that has the mentality that gays can be "fixed" through religion, which I do not agree with. He has said that being gay is a choice people make and everyone has tendencies, which is leading me to possibly believe he may be bisexual, but chooses his faith over being open and sexually free. When we spoke further, he said he intends on marrying and having children with me, and that it's just something he got into, like an addiction. I need some sort of advice, because now I have the thought in the back of my head that my future husband masturbates only to tgirls and has this deep rooted attraction that he is trying to fight off. Help give me some guidance please!
