It's really weird, but in general, when I'm attracted to women, I feel less feminine, and when I'm attracted to men, I feel more like a woman. I've felt womanly while imagining having a girlfriend, but I sometimes look at men and my subconcious thinks it's male. However, I'm only truly happy as a woman. What's going on?
That sounds like some form of gender fluidity to me. Being gender fluid means (as from what I can tell) that you aren't saddling yourself with a gender. You just go with the flow. I am no expert on gender fluidity, but I hope this helps. -Charlie
You could very likely still be a cisgendered woman. You said you're only truly happy as a woman. For those of us in the gender nonbinary, being a "man" or a "woman" is upsetting, and is the cause of our dysphoria. You could likely be going through something that many cisgendered people go through but in a different way: Pretty much getting in touch with your "male" side like quite a few guys get in touch with their "female" side. Does that seem accurate?
Not just getting in touch with my male side, eg being more boyish, but I sometimes have autoandrophilia, or I imagine sex as a guy being more natural, just something my body does. I imagine the same as a woman, I'd imagine there being more emotion that way.
