so I have a therapist but I have problems talking to him and I dont really like him but I cant change therapist because my parents will not pay for another because they are really religious and believe we are sinning going down this path I am lucky to have been able to see one period but I need to start transitioning before I do something stupid to myself again and I feel like I will not be able to convince this therapist that I am transgender because I have a really hard time talking to guys especially when I have to open up to them and I dont remember much about my childhood which I am afraid it will be that much harder to convince my therapist that I am transgender if I dont start transitioning/HRT soon my parents will be beuring (spell check) their child soon please help me
Take a breath. As stressful and confusing and frustrating life is right now for you, you don't want to die. You may feel like you do, because all of those feelings you have right now will be gone in an instant. But just imagine the things you want in life that you will miss out on. I attempted to take my life when I was 15 and again when I was 17. I failed, thank God. I have had so many amazing experiences that I would have missed. My dear friend, she succeeded in her attempt. She was an amazing, beautiful soul..but should couldn't see past the pain that was at that moment... Now she is cold in the ground. She never got to experience anything past that rope and that closet....no second chance for her... So please, when you start thinking death is the answer, start listing everything in your mind that you want out of LIFE. Death gives you nothing but silence... Life gives you so much more. As for therapists, give this man a try. You might have to wait to transition until you are an adult, which may seem like forever and a day. Your parents won't have control over you forever, remember that.