When I first came out as transgender I was really happy, it felt like a huge relief. But now as I further along my transition it feels more like a burden. Sometimes I pass fairly easily and sometimes I don't. It's hard to correct people because I don't want to explain to people why I'm doing it, and because I'm still insecure about it. It's hard though because even when I do pass I hate myself because I'm still a girl. I can't afford surgery right now but I'm slowly moving my way forward towards starting T. It's kinda effecting my life and my self-esteem obviously because I rather isolate myself than go out and socialize with people and when I do socialize with people I never feel like I'm being myself and then I hate myself because I'm acting fake. ~Kye
I'm not good with people either. I don't feel right with guys, 'cause I'm not one of them, but I feel like because I'm trans I'm different from the ciswomen as well. I think it might help to talk to people online, since it's way easier to pass when they can't see or hear me, and it gives me a chance to get used to being myself, which definitely helps me feel better about myself. But then I'm not out except for a few people online.
Yeah, that's pretty much what I'm going through. I've identified as a transguy for a year. I don't pass since I don't have a binder. Most of my friends are girls and treat me like their gay best friend (which is annoying) and the guys I do hang out with think I'm a lesbian. Gay/bi guys and Straight/bi chicks aren't interested since I'm not cis. Straight guys tell me that they wish I was a girl. Then the lesbians try to accept me and I feel insulted, since I'm not a lesbian. Yea, it sucks. Just remember that this is all temporay. Just hang in there and try to be patient. It's not your fault that you're not fitting in, it's cissexist society's.
