Beyond Confused Sometimes it feels like I’m hiding so much from everyone. Sometimes it gets so bad that I end up crying because I am not sure how to handle it. I feel like I’m not the right person and I don’t feel like I can like me for me. I hate this body I was born with; I can’t be the female everyone thinks I should be when I don’t feel like a female to start with. I just want to get it off my chest and say something but its just so hard and it hurts. It just scares me beyond anything; I have really no one to try to talk to about it this. Because I’m so scared no one will understand (the people around me) and after breaking down last night I decided to try to understand this more. I don’t know what I’m asking I just want to get this off my chest because it scares me to hold it in cause I just want to talk to someone about it.
I'm going through the exact same thing right now. I can't stand my own body and I feel very uncomfortable. Sometime I even find myself wishing I was born a guy. I wish there was some advice I could give you but I'm just as lost as you. I guess I can say your not alone and if you ever need someone to talk to you can always talk to me since we both have a common ground we stand on.
You sound as if you could be transgender. You're posting in this section, you so understand something about it, but have you considered transition? I can answer many questions you might have; I transitioned 3 years ago, and I've been taking hormones for 18 months, and I've had top surgery. But yeah, I know what you're going through (*hug*). Its very hard, but you can get through it. We're all here, to listen and advise.
It just feels like there's a never ending fight in my head going on and I'm pretty sure I am transgender but I have never considered transition. I feel like I am hiding this from my best friends because I do have one friend that considers me a HE like I want, my best friend gets mad saying how I am a girl and should be called one. I just I hate hiding, I don't know what to do. I just want to stop hating myself.
