I see that there are many people in their teens, and even under 30, who have uncovered that they might need to live life as a different gender to feel like themselves. I haven't heard as many stories for those that are discovering this later in life. I have only recently realized that I am gay, and am still trying to accept that. However, I have found, in the last week, that I have become obsessed with watching mtf transition videos and hearing their testimonials. One of the most recent developments in my acceptance of being gay, is an expression of a feminine side in my walk and attitude(or perspective). My voice also wants to be softer. It makes me feel at home with myself. I am thinking that I might associate as a different gender, and that might be a huge source for my dissociative experience and other social phobias. It is really throwing me for a loop since I am in my mid-late 30's. I think I am in shock. Anyone else with a similar experience?
