Today, I realized that I'm Trans. It all fits together perfectly, like a big puzzle. I'd rather not say how I found out. It's a tad embarrassing. I have... a bit of Transphobia. I'm worried.
Transphobia is the fear of transgender people. I guess that fits, in a weird sort of way. You're not alone, though- many trans people feel overwhelmed when they realize things.
Takes time to come to terms with things. What helped me was realizing that being trans doesn't mean I'm a freak- means I'm different and things won't always be easy but as far as life goes, too many differences in the world to act like being trans or not being teams is the only way to be or worry about. Research, talk to people. And just take it slow. You know, explore your identity. Find a name that suits you and do what you can to affirm yourself. Clothes, online profiles under the right gender, etc. And in the near future, you can see a gender therapist, think about whether you'd like to transition and how to go about it.
You are so calm, when I found out I was trans it was one of the worst days of my life, I couldn't handle it. I was depressed upset and crying, my whole world came crashing down. My cis dreams were ruined forever. You just seen fine though
I've seen alot of bad stuff growing up. Me and my parents had to flee our homes in fear of being severely hurt. My neighborhood was messed the hell up. I am calm and collected now. Note: May sound weird.
See I was curious before, but now you've told me you don't want to say and now I reaaaally want to know how you discovered it. As for where you go from here...well actually we kind of DO need to know a little more, not necessarily how you found out but we do need to know how you feel right now, what are you comfortable and uncomfortable with. What direction do you want to take things. Do you need to do anything at all!
I say embarrassing, when I really mean weird. I guess it sort of just clicked. I don't know. A funny aspect of this is when I was 4; 4YO Me: Somebody made a mistake and should get rid of this pipi because I am a girl! I laughed the whole day having remembered this. Anyway, I sort of just suddenly realized. Ever since I came to Empty Closets, I've been a weird person.