(didn't really know where to put this..hopefully it's in the right forum section..) So last night I had this strange dream that ended with me coming out as transgender to a sort-of-friend of mine from school. I had driven him home and when he got out of the car, I got out too and stopped him and said "I'm transgender". Then he hugged me and said "It's okay", and I woke up. This isn't the first time I've had a dream like this. I've had a somewhat similar one in which I came out to the other FtM boy at my school, although it's been a few months since that one. Has anyone else had dreams like these? I don't know what to think of them, other than I guess the issue of coming out has caused me enough distress that I even think about it when I sleep.
I can relate to having these kinds of dreams. I remember one in particular in which I came out to a teacher, and she hugged me, and I felt so safe and loved in her arms that I began to sob. Thinking of the dream now still makes me feel both sad and happy, because I never came out to her in real life. I like these kinds of dreams. They don't feel stressful at all. They feel hopeful. I have other dreams (nightmares, I suppose) in which I'm being teased and bullied. There was one in particular in which I was naked and everyone could see that I wasn't exactly who I said I was, and they ridiculed me, and I got angry, and started throwing stuff at them, but my arm was so weak, and I could not hit them, and I couldn't run away or hide. I agree with Kasey: we dream about the things we want. Also about the things that make us afraid.
