A poem about my gender by a recently discovered closeted gender queer

Hey, so I wrote this about my gender a little while ago and I would love some feedback. their might be a few mistakes I'm a bit tentative to letting people proofread it because my gender is still considered cis-gender and I don't feel comfortable letting people know about it because I am still a very feminine person. By the way this poem is supposed to be spoken word (Slam poetry). Please leave feedback.​

"Ode to Invisible Boy
A poem by imsoconfused

James has always been there
been there in the girl’s smile
as she races past the boys

James is the way she grins
when someone catches her
staring at another girls chest

James is strong
James is the shadow
that never leaves with the sun
an everlasting echo of a dream
never to been seen nor heard

James is the look of envy
she gets towards the other guy’s suit
while she stands there in three inch heels
feeling like a drag queen

James is the way
every time someone calls her ma'am
A bullet enters her heart

I am the girl
who fights so hard to exist
buried beneath self hatred and depression
Lost in a shadow
that no one else can see

because my brain
doesn’t always agree with my hormones
because “gender” has never fit me
deemed “girl” by birth
yet lost in a field of
both Masculinity and Femininity

Gender has never fit me,
and gender will never fit me.
Do you really think
over 7 billion people
can fit in two categories?

Everyday James wakes up
And paints his face
proving to the world
that one can be both male yet female
masculine yet feminine.

Sometimes James feels like a trans woman
born in the right body
cis-gendered
but imagine all the other times
the times when his best friend
doesn't even know he exists

I am James
I will always be James
whether boy or girl
girl nor boy
I am James"
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Thank you so much!