I think I'm getting to the point where I want to see my GP and a therapist and actually book the appointment soon! I've come out and talked to someone face to face about this, which was amazing! And even dropping subtle hints to other people. Just wanted to share.
*whispering with a snakes tongue* yesssss, yesssss to the Dark Side you do come, yesssss yesssss, we have cookies and cake over here you know.