Went to a discussion group at a local lgbt center tonight and afterwards decided I'm scheduling a counseling appointment tomorrow :eusa_danc Still have a million seeds of self-doubt but honestly they're all unrealistic when it comes to keeping my sanity, which I haven't been treasuring as I should lately. I'm going to get a sports bra to compliment my yoga and start treating my body like the temple it is! I crossed my legs like I wanted to in public for the first time ever, shaved as soon as I got home (seems trivial but a huge security blanket to me), going to be a huge shock to everyone as I'm always been presumed to be 4-5 years older than I am and I've had a full beard since 17, almost noone I see regularly has ever even seen my chin, my mother keeps calling me baby-face. Which brings me to I told my mom I think I'm transgendered and she said "If it will make you happy." Pretty good update, but it's like looking down a very daunting road that I know will make me happier but I'm already terrified of the world, it's scary to think of myself as a target to men and all the terrible things people do to trans* when I'm in such a privileged (but miserable) position right now.
i understand how you're feeling but your mom seems awesome, having support is crucial. i waited too long to try to live for me and who i am inside. i'm glad you have a therapist to help you through this and ec has great people to lend support. wish you happiness.
