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Discussion in 'Gender Identity and Expression' started by anonym, Apr 8, 2014.

  1. anonym

    anonym Guest

    I have been feeling quite depressed recently about my looks, even as a trans man. I see other guys transitions and how successful they are and realise they are fortunate enough to be taller, bigger and have different facial features to me. I don't know why I look at these things because they only make me feel more depressed and angry about what I have been handed in life. I mean if I had to be trans, why did I have to be so short and have such a round face?

    Perhaps it's because I'm angry and don't feel a part of society or perhaps it's because I don't have any hope of ever looking cis enough but I just feel like I'm not meant to be here, not in this body or this society. I feel like I am basically just waiting for this life to be over and when it is I will be set free and find peace at last. I have never believed that the spirit lives on and I'm not religious at all but I get this feeling that there is something beyond this life and this body, as though this life is a punishment for something that I'm serving time for.