Hello, I just joined this forum and website so I'm hoping I'm posting this in the correct place but if not please forgive and I would just like to say I'm super glad I found this site. Now on to my question. So I'm a 14 male and I'm seriously questioning everything about my sexuality...I've always been normal and as I know that gays never really act a certain way I never thought that I might be gay until a few months ago. I've had a girlfriend but I never was really super attracted to her I just thought of her as a special friend that I could hang out with and be me around since she liked me for me. But other then that I was never really attracted to her but I have been somewhat attracted to other guys (God it feels weird to type that) Now I've only ever told my closest friends that I was Bisexual because I would like the benefit of doubt from them for a little while. My problem is I'm really not sure what I am and as I know I shouldn't be so quick to label my self I don't really care what others think of me because I realize it's my life and not theirs and if they don't like me then they can :***: themselves because I won't deal with their crap my point being is I think I may gay and I have no problem with that my problem is not really knowing at all and it stress's me out a ton because I would like to experiment with people but I can't because I don't know anybody like me so I'm always feeling alone. So can anyone give me advice to figure out who I really am? Because I don't think I can deal with the stress of it anymore.
I watched my first porn (straight) when I was 12. One day, I was attracted to a guy in one of those vids. I was pretty much straight at that time. It took me 5 years to figure out that I am really gay and believe me, I was in denial for a long time. Right now,only a few people know though. You're still 14. You'll figure it out. Probably not now, but maybe you gotta wait for a couple of years. It can be frustrating sometimes but that's life.
I see I won't lie I've watched some porn (But who hasn't) But I kept paying attention to the dude in it and so I stopped watching for thinking I'm weird. I don't wanna wait I wanna know so I can just be done with my stress and depression ;-; But your right I'll figure it out eventually thanks for the answer.
