So I came out at to a manager at work, a week ago. Today I spoke with the medical management team who basically gave me phone numbers to their direct line. They're licensed medical professionals staffed by Home Depot. Apparently, they put in a "medical accommodation" for me to use the women's bathroom. By the time I got off the phone with them I was in shock. I mean, this is what I want, to go into the bathroom, do my business and leave, not sit there, wait for people to leave, and hope no one sees me so I can avoid any more embarrassment than I've already endured going in there in the first place. More and more people are recognizing me as a female, calling me Sofiya (or Sophie) and using female pronouns. I even started to correct people in a calm and polite manner today as well! If I'm not mistaken this is going to be the first step in Home Depot officially recognizing me as a female. I got a text from the bestie as well. She told me she's still going to call me "Patty" as a way to ease herself into this. She's not used to Sofiya yet but is just afraid that I'm no longer going to be the friend she loves. I told her to have no fear, I'm still going to be the same person to which she replied, "she hopes so" and then the conversation switched to Skylanders Everything is moving SO fast and it's just like a whirlwind to me. I woke up HAPPY this morning for the first time in a while. I mean, I'm HAPPY with myself for once and it feels so incredibly amazing. I'm scared this feeling will go away but everyday I wake up and look in the mirror I can actually smile at myself. Granted I still have a long ways to go, I'm not fond of the over zealousness of my body hair to grow or that whole "genitalia" thing. But I'm getting over it and STILL being happy. In therapy on Monday I couldn't even say my biological name, the full version. I tried. I really and truly did and my therapist just smiled at me and said, "You really don't like saying that name do you Sofiya?" We laughed about it and we laughed about silly things. It's just been a whirlwind of good feelings and it feels like I'm moving so fast but I can actually face off against my mom KNOWING full well I'm a female, I'm her daughter, and yet have no makeup on and be dressed as a male (which is what she requested of me when I'm in her presence.) I have family accepting me and giving me love and support, friends coming around. It's all just happening fast and feels like I'm in a whirlwind of positive things. I'm sorry for the ramblingness of this post but I needed to post this somewhere and I figured why not post it here?
Amazing developments, Sofiya! Someone's hit the fast forward button on your transition somewhere, but you seem to be keeping up just fine!
