About going to sleep with trans thoughts on my mind.

I talk in my sleep, I don't know how much or how often, but I do. I flail around alot and have supposedly whapped my wife in the arm or the face or w/e on more than a few occasions while sleeping.

My question is, is it wrong that I secretly hope that some of this, how should I put this, 'identity exploration' unintentionally might just slip out during these 'talking in my sleep' times? And is it wrong that I keep hoping that, she might have witnessed some of these incidents?

 

To be honest, I don't know how I feel about any of this. But yes you make a good point, if it's worth saying it just needs to be said plainly and openly. On to the issue of my wife accepting this possibility, I'm extremely skeptical that she would. At all. She and I were both raised in very conservative, religious families. Realistically, if I were to drop something like this on her, I would expect she would be gone that same day. The backlash she would endure from everyone if she stayed would be IMO too much for her to live with.

I think, well now that I think about it that's the whole point of what I said earlier. If it were some ramblings of a sleeping idiot, I could a little more easily gauge how she'd react. But then I already know how that would go.