For as long as I could remember I've always noticed guys.. I've always wondered what they would look like shirtless. And I wanted to see.. There bodies. This was back then in middle school and high-school. I always liked seeing muscular men shirtless. Especially the toned out ones. When I looked at straight porn I would look at the guys all the time. It's just been bugging. I've never liked any girls before. I don't look at there boobs or butts.. I've never fantasized about women.. I don't even notice them. Since I started dating men.. Every time I started doing sexual things with my partner.. I get this lingering feeling.. This feeling like I am doing something wrong.. There are days when I can look a guy and don't notice them as attractive.. And there are times when i do. But for women.. I am not attractive at all to them %100. It just sometimes I think I am not gay at all.. I feel like sometimes I lack that feeling like I can find love. I don't know if love builds overtime.. Or will come over time. I just confused.. Idk what to do..
