So, today I dressed as a boy. bound my chest, short hair, hat. At first I looked very dykey but then more trans male. And for some reason when I express my male side, I want to dress in my female clothes, even though they make me self-conscious. It's what I'm used to. And I feel like I'm supressing my feminine side, yet when I try to "act like a girl" it makes me uncomfortable too. Does anyone else get this? Could I be bigendered? Or maybe I'm non-binary? Maybe I'm just not used to not being self-conscious. Maybe I'm a girl with a male mind w/o necessarily being male gendered and so don't like being expected to be glamourous etc. I guess it didn't help that the clothes I was wearing today were overly-typically-male-casual rather than smarter. I look good in suits.
It sounds totally normal for you to feel out of your comfort zone. I did something similar, and wore a super masculine outfit to school. It was great, but I wanted to wear my female clothes because I was scared somebody was gonna say something rude (which only one person did). As for your gender, I don't think I can give the greatest advice, cause I'm confused as well!
