Hey everyone.. I'm a 25 year old female. I have always been attracted to guys. Especially masculine, alpha male types. I have always been sexually attracted to women too though. I remember fantasizing about a friend of mine and what it would be like to be with her in bed. Im moving to a big city in 9 days, I'm staying with my gay male friend. He is friends with this girl, who is a lesbian. & she added me to Facebook .. I was looking through her pictures, and I'm insanely attracted to her. I have never thought of anyone to be so stunning. Now she looks exactly like a guy, no one would be able to tell the difference by looking at her. We have been talking and she is all I think about. Its like an intense, strong attraction I've never felt before. The fact that she's a girl under those clothes intrigues me and interests me even more. I want her so bad. We have made a lot of plans for when I arrive to the city. She basically has told me to stop seeing other people. Making it exclusive. She tells me to "be good" whenever I go out, assures me she's doing the same. She knows I have never been with another woman before too. So I find out she has a crazy ex girlfriend, who she still sees regularly- who is a stripper, and basically pays her... Its been on going for years.. She didn't tell me about it, so I told her I wasn't gonna talk to her anymore. I'm not into all that baggage. And I would see her sround, well supposedly she got pretty upset about it cause she is really into me.. & I'm really into her too but finding out she has this crazy life style is a lot of drama I don't want to get involved with. I know I should not continue anything with her, but she will be around a lot because she's good friends with my friend who I'm gonna live with.. And I know she can manipulate me in person cause the desire to be with this girl for me is so strong.. I don't know how I'm going to resist.. Now I can't get my mind off women. Lol.. I want to be with a women so bad, its a crazy feeling from living my whole life as a straight girl, boy crazy to having an strong urge to be with a women. And the thought of being with a man is kind of repulsing to me now.. What happened!!??? Also should I give this girl a chance.. She said once I get to the city she'll prove me different and show me how it really is. To give her a chance.. I want to but I don't think I can trust this girl. Could her intention be to, have me be a stripper working for her!?! Just to hook up.. To manipulate.. Or does she have genuine feelings for me..
