Sorry this gets graphic. For awhile I've come across the verdict that I'm bi with a preference for women. However, recently I noticed that when it does come to fantasies about men I imagine myself as a woman(most of my more male fantasies have faceless guys). For instance I tried exploring with gay porn but it just didn't seem to turn me on as much compared to the straight counterpart. Whereas I would get turned off by seeing a guy blowing another guy, it turns me on seeing a girl do that, sometimes even imagining that I'm that woman. Like say a picture that shows an attractive girl surrounded by dicks near her face (just show lower half of the male bodies & not faces), I would be attracted to the girl because of her facial features and body but also aroused by imagining myself surrounded like her. That said, I don't always place myself in the position of the woman, majority of the time I'm the guy dominating the girl. In public, I still checkout women about 95% of the time, with the occasional attractive effeminate guy. I'm not exactly sure what to make of this thought process. If anyone could help me out with this confusion that would be awesome . Apologize if I ended up putting this in the wrong subforum, just couldn't choose between this or sexual orientation.
You only seem to imagine yourself as a woman in sexual situations, so I would definitely say it's a fetish.
It sounds like autogynephilia, arousal at the thought of being a woman. I think a good thing to think about is if you could actual picture yourself living as a woman. Or better yet, can you picture yourself going through the rest of your life as a man? After thinking about that you might start to realize what you want, and wether it's just a bedroom thing.
