Is there any possibility at all that I'm cis?

I'm biologically male.
I chose a gender neutral name for myself when I was 2
The first time I expressed a desire to wear womens clothing was when I was 4 or 5
I don't like it when people say things like "What a handsome young man you are"
I am physically repulsed by my body hair, my only masculine feature. When it first started coming in I would get so upset I would rip it out. From what I've heard that's not as bad as a lot of peoples dyphoria. It should be pointed out that back when I did that I was also extremely emotionally unstable.
I am 18 and my voice hasn't changed, but I am extremely worried that it might.
I don't feel like a man
I don't want to be a man
I don't want to be a woman either.
I don't use masculine pronouns to describe myself

Do you think there are any cis people who feel this way? Before I come out completely I need to be 100% sure. Honestly as I typed this I noticed there's pretty much no way I'm not genderqueer though.

 

I like what Natalie Reed has to say on this subject:

 

You sound trans to me but only you know for sure.

 

I don't think any truly cis people feel this way, but there's no one "cis" experience. I just know that when I was complemented on being pretty as a kid I was super happy, even though I now present very androgynously and I dislike my boobs and often use gender-neutral nicknames. Despite this I still feel connected with the gender I was designated at birth.

But maybe you're somewhere in the middle; if you don't feel female, you could be gq, bigender, agender, genderfluid...

 

I consider myself cis, but I also have moments of gender confusion and genderqueer phases. It took me a long time to just realize I have slightly more masculine interests and my body dysphoria was just based on internalized homophobia.

You sound genderqueer though.

 

Thanks for the replies, hope I get a few more.

 

You definitely don't sound cis to me.

 

Only you can determine what your gender is, although, based on what you've listed.. I don't imagine a cis person mentioning half of those things, especially dysphoria or not wanting to be, or feeling like, a man or woman.

 

If you don't want to be a man or a woman, could you possibly be agender?

 

Well, I kind of go back and forth between feeling like I'm agender and feeling like I'm an androgyne. Maybe it's kind of like I'm agender, but with an androgynous expression? Although sometimes I do feel like I have what could be described as feminine or masculine energy. It's all pretty confusing so I just say genderqueer.

 

Genderqueer sounds right. That's what I'd go with if I were you but like the posters above said, only you can really know for sure.
Love your sig BTW! :eusa_clap:roflmao:

 

Maybe you should go ask cis people, no? . You sound very feminine and react very strongly against masculinity.