I'm not sure, but either way, I'm flipping out. After a year of unemployment, I'm scheduled to work abroad in a few weeks and I've placed my eggs in this basket- my flight will be booked any second now, the clock is ticking. So there won't be any therapists I think I can even see, let alone gender therapists. And I hate to admit it, but I feel like the gender dysphoria is getting worse. This popped up out of nowhere, and I'm not sure what to do. I want to experiment with cross dressing, but I'll be living with other people, and doubt I could experiment much. I just.....can't find the courage to admit this to anyone in real life, because I don't understand these feelings and am absolutely TERRIFIED to reveal them. On top of sleep problems, a heartbreak (Ugh.), and social anxiety/loneliness due to sensitivity, I now have this I need to deal with. And frankly- I'm not sure if I can cope anymore. Please, please help- any advice at all is essential at this point.
I think you might have to begin with small steps, and start to accept who you are as a person. Try simple things at first, like maybe a little bit of some make-up, and some feminine clothing that could, if worse came to worse "pass" as male clothing. As for those latter things, it takes time. I myself have suffered from a multitude of -fun- disorders, including depression and anorexia. If you ever need help feel free to send me a message. Part of it is just small steps and accepting who you are as a person - what other people think of you is nothing in comparison.