I came out a few months ago to my family and on facebook. I have no problem expressing myself around family and close friends. Now, I'm in a pharmacy school and feel like I'm in the closet all over again. I identify myself as being masculine guy with some feminine qualities. I act like how I normally would (while repressing my feminine qualities) around my classmates. It's very easy for me since that's how I acted my entire life until I came out. I did drop some hints here and there, but none of my close circle of (new) friends have figure out yet. I find it depressing at times trying to repress my true self. Due to the profession and being around new people, I could not freely express myself or feel uncomfortable/exposed by doing so. Part of me just want to tell everybody but I feel not everyone needs to know and I should wait for someone to ask instead. I know some students in my class of 200 are gay because my gaydar went off. I'm sure some of them know that I'm gay. Being the introvert that I am, I could not introduce myself to random people especially with others around. I have a mild case of agoraphobia and that doesn't help at all with making new friends. No wonder I have so little friends as a high school, an undergrad and now a grad student. I most definitely will join the GSA at my school and hopefully meet some new friends. Any advice for making new (gay) friends and expressing myself without feeling exposed/uncomfortable is greatly appreciated.
