So basically I've been flip flopping genders for the past few months. I have all the "signs" of being trans (even insisting i was a boy during my early years and wearing guys clothes on and off), I just don't want to end up transitioning full of regret. I feel like I have to be a pretty girl so guys will be attracted to me and no girl wants to date a dude without a cock. I came out as trans once before, but my father was so against it I chickened out and went back in the closet. Every time I think I'm trans and want to transition I start doubting I'll be happy or be a real man etc. I'm so anxious about it. I don't know what to do. Every time i put on something girly and look int he mirror I just see a guy in a dress. I can't take the not knowing anymore. Help?
Well... It really sounds like you're trans, but you are afraid of the way people are going to treat you because of that. You don't need to transition to be trans, there are many people in this situation that use alternative ways to deal with dysphoria and I believe that you should give yourself some time to figure out if you should transition or not. You don't need to hurry on this. I'm sorry that your father didn't react so well with your coming out, I wished I could give you some advice on it, but that's all I can tell you.
You might have a look at this: Am I Transgender or Transsexual - Teens Wonder Am I Transgender or Transsexual and this: http://emptyclosets.com/forum/anony.../147192-transitioning-where-do-i-start.html#2 The transgender spectrum goes i.e. from people living with almost androgynous appearance, to styling more like the preferred gender, to taking hormones, to srs. Of course the list is not all possible options. It's up to you to collect further information... You might for example talk to a gender therapist or someone from an lgbt center, if that's what you want. They might help and reassure you. I would do things I'm comfortable with, don't feel pressured to do something... its your decision... There is no only one right way to do this. Its your choice what you want to do... I'd say just relax... this is not true... some girls may not like it but there are many who are ok with it... and there are strapons, by the way... (*hug*)
