Is there a name for this?

It's hard to choose a specific label based on what you have said here, because you haven't entirely talked about your feelings. It sounds like you are cisgender (assigned male at birth and still identify as male) but you possibly are interested in crossdressing/typically feminine activities/collectibles?
This is part of gender expression. I can't be sure, but it sounds like you wish you could (at least at times) be more feminine and/or beautiful. I can't remember if there is a term for someone who is cis male but with some feminine gender expression, but I hope some of these terms help.

 

From my interpretation, I'd suggest bigender, maybe genderfluid, maybe demigender.

 

Hmm, well there's nothing wrong with being mtf, but being both masculine and feminine; if anything, it just shows you're human, liking a variety of things, regardless if they stick to the bullshit masc/femme identities.

Hell, I know I'm a woman, but I definitely don't want to wear skirts, and I hardly care for make-up. I'm fine with being a tomboy, and there's nothing wrong with that

 

If you have a desire to express your masculine and feminine qualities simultaneously with your presentation, you could be an androgyne. Androgynous people often choose to express themselves by blending characteristics of the two binary genders into some unique third thing, and generally prefer to be seen as neither male nor female (though some androgynes prefer to be seen as more male than female, or more female than male).

If you sometimes feel very male, and other times feel very female, you could be genderfluid. Fluid people tend to shift from one sense of expression and identity to another, having a "boy mode" and "girl mode". They sometimes like to be seen as male, and other times, as female.

If you just happen to enjoy both masculine and feminine things, have both masculine and feminine role models, and feel pretty much comfortable with who you are, then I'd say you're an open minded, well-rounded human that doesn't feel limited by society's "black and white" mentality about gender and gender roles. Which is a wonderful thing to be.

 

I want to be a hot girl too.

But in reality I just want to be that girl next door.

But you should see my activities. I like video games, karate, misogynistic and vulgar rap and gross humor.

But I like clothes and fashion and being able to express emotions without ridicule.

Your feelings are not uncommon here.

 

i totaly feel you, i like dresses and skirts, makeup, high heels ect. but i also like baggy clothes, rock and roll, zombie games and other freakishly boyish things.

 

yeah, keeping it all bottled up makes you feel depressed and physicly drained.

 

Good cuz thats what were here for :3

 

Np, i would want the same from you if this were me.

 

I've bottled this shit for 32 years. No more.

 

Well take a look at my avatar. Do I look happy?

Yea I do, and yea I am.