Questioning my feelings about my identity

If you don't feel like you're trans then I think you probably aren't. If you wrote that you wish you were a boy after being sexually harassed, it sounds more like you were wishing that so you could escape the harassment that is often targeted towards women, and not because you were trans.

 

Most days I want to wear boy clothes and I can't imagine having long hair, but other days I want to wear dresses. Wanting to wear dresses doesn't make me less trans, because I do want to be male, or at least, to be taken as one socially and to have a more male appearance.

If you've never seen yourself as anything other than female, though, I'd say you're probably not trans.

If you feel like you don't fit in the little boxes, and you do see yourself as female, you could be a gender non-conforming girl. Which is perfectly fine! It would explain why you felt different from other girls (while still seeing yourself all this time as female), why you like to dress boyishly, etc.

 

I think if you were full trans, you would have experienced dysphoria by now. It sounds to me like you may be genderfluid, or you might just be a girl who has boyish moods from time to time.

 

You might have a look at this:
http://emptyclosets.com/forum/gender-identity-expression/153243-androgynous-something-else.html#3

(*hug*)

 

I think some aforementioned statements may be something to look into. To me, it sounds like androgynous/genderqueer/similar would be a potential reality for you. If you want to be masculine sometimes, and feminine other, that's completely fine and more than acceptable. If you don't ever feel dysphoric or like you'd want to live as a male over a female (body-wise and similar) then the likelihood of you being trans is less than likely, although your fears may be cloaking some minor denial.
Regardless, androgynous, etc may be your best bet, if anything. There are varying degrees of femininity and lack thereof for all genders and identities, and figuring out where you lay on that scale may be your answer.

 

Oh yeah I forgot to say this earlier but it's perfectly normal to be a girl that isn't always very feminine. If you like being a girl, then I don't see any reason to change

 

You sound like a cis girl to me.

 

Hi Frostbite- thanks for sharing. I think it's an incredibly good thing, although perhaps disconcerting because of what you perceive to be the countless masses of wagging fingers who might think otherwise, that you are having this conversation and asking these questions. To offer a suggestion/thought from what is most certainly a very different place in the spectrum of the conversation about sexuality/orientation/identity, I would suggest that you try, ruthlessly, to sort out the voices/feelings in you that are part of the debate, that are *not* part of your authentic you, but rather just the internalized *s**** from everyone else. If other people in your life (alas, not surprisingly, given our culture) are weirded out about the notion that you might be trans, that could be affecting your clear thinking as to figuring out whether you really are. But have you consciously tried to put aside what you perceive to be the conventional binary default setting of everyone else, and considered the possibility that there is some other stage in your journey that is before you. Good luck with your search.

 

You sound like a non-conforming female or a crossdresser.