All my life I've felt somthing's wrong with me, but I can't put my finger on it. I was born a girl and raised to act like one. Being the little sister to 3 older brothers, I was a little tomboy when I was little, but whenever I showed any sort of inclinations towards "boy toys" or whatever, my parents would just give me more "girl stuff". I was ok with it, but I didn't understand why they did it. I've kept to my girly side for as long as I can remember, because if I don't, my parents won't like it. But there are times when I just can't force it and I just don't feel like I'm being me. Like, why am I even a girl? What's that supposed to mean? Why can't I be a boy? It's just really confusing and I really don't know how to explain it. All I know is that sometimes it just doesn't feel right to be a girl. I can't say I don't identify as one though, because I do, sort of. But just half the time, and I don't know why. Why do I even wanna be a guy? I rock those dresses and heels and I can be super fabulous and whatever, but at the same time ughhh it's ridiculous and I just wanna sit at home and play videogames. I know that has nothing to do with it, but I'm just looking for a way to explain what J feel. I wanna be a guy. I always have, and I don't know whyyy
You sound a lot like me. Always the tomboy when I was younger, never got the Batman action figures I wanted for Christmas (replaced by copious amounts of Barbies), always felt like I had to play the 'girl'. All through high school I tried imagining myself as a guy, and somedays it felt way better than being a girl and other days I just liked my boobs way too much to not have them. What does being a girl or guy mean? I think I have the answer now. It means nothing in Nature and everything in society. You weren't born a girl, you were born and people labelled you a girl. So feel free to reject that label, and I guess try on different labels until you find one that feels more 'you'. I don't know how old you are, but it took me 15-20 years to figure this out to where I feel comfortable with my identity, and I wouldn't be suprised if it changed again someday. Good Luck!
You might have a look here: http://emptyclosets.com/forum/gender-identity-expression/155543-not-female-not-male-but.html#2 and here: Am I Transgender or Transsexual - Teens Wonder Am I Transgender or Transsexual (*hug*)
Thank you so much, this has definitely enlightened me. Thanks for reassuring me, and thanks for the advice ---------- Post added 18th Nov 2014 at 10:42 PM ---------- Thank you
