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Possibility of Regret Holding You Back?

Discussion in 'Gender Identity and Expression' started by thesonoferik, Dec 5, 2014.

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  1. thesonoferik

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    I'm terrified of coming out as trans and transitioning and then realizing that I had made a mistake, and had thrown away my chances at a normal relationship, my chances at having my own kids, and my relationship with my parents.

    This fear is so visceral me that it stops me from opening up to even my closest friends in my fairly accepting community. I've wanted to be female my whole life, but something about that step is just paralyzing. I guess I'm still holding on to the hope that I can repress this and just be normal. I want it to be a phase. I'd much rather be a cis male than a trans female... but I really really really want to be a cis female...

    I was wondering if anyone else is in the same boat as me on this?
     
    #1 thesonoferik, Dec 5, 2014
  2. Tai

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    Completely. Doubt and fear of regret are the whole reason I got a therapist rather than transitioning without making sure I won't regret it. And who knows, maybe I will regret it even after talking with the therapist. But there's a much smaller chance of that.
     
    #2 Tai, Dec 6, 2014
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    I regret not coming out earlier
     
    #3 Kasey, Dec 6, 2014
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    Yeah, that's a big big fear for me too :frowning2:
     
    #4 JustJJx, Dec 6, 2014
  5. Adam1969

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    Yes, you have described me pretty much to a tee, years back! I discovered that I was not truly transgendered. That may not be the case for you though. I'm very pleased to have gone through the experience as now I understand myself and transgendered people so much better. (&&&) To what ever degree you decide to transition, wherever you end up in the spectrum, you will feel better about yourself as the process evolves. :thumbsup:
     
    #5 Adam1969, Dec 6, 2014
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    I completely relate to this. I've been questioning for more than two years. Actually just a couple weeks ago I've really started to feel ready to transition. Do research, go on YouTube and watch video blogs to see if you relate and then decide for yourself what you want to do. Only you can know what will make you happy, but take all the time you need. There's no rush.
     
    #6 Groosenator, Dec 6, 2014
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    I have this fear heavily to.

    How ill never bare a child inside my womb.

    how ill never experience child birth.

    My wedding I wont wear that beautiful dress everyone gawks at you for.

    I worry I wont " pass" .

    I worry ill lose my fiancé when the changes begin.

    I worry for reactions of so called friends...


    I worry how my changing of documents is going to be.

    Yes believe me, I was ready to ditch the boobs the minute the pain from growing started. And I always hated my periods.

    Their nothing but angry inducing pain mess. to me.


    Believe me when I say, I will never be female. but theres a side of me that will miss the biggest thought which is bearing my own baby.
     
    #7 Angelus, Dec 7, 2014
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