I think I know I'm genderfluid, but I wish I just had a button that I could turn from a girl to a guy. I want to be a guy in general, but I also like to have hips and curves and be able to be all cute and have long hair but I also want a hair fluff thingy and look like FTMs. I can't handle this, I don't know what to do and I'm honestly still questioning suicide. I need help I don't know who I am. I just want to figure it out and be who I really am. I've been supressed by my transphobic family my whole life. Any advice or anything is very helpful I'm grateful to all of you. Opinions of what you think I am would help a lot more. Thanks! <3 :icon_sad:
I'm sure you have heard this before, but suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. My friend attempted suicide last week and it broke my heart; I am sure someone will miss you so much if you tried to kill yourself. I have a friend who is struggling with being genderfluid with a transphobic family as well. They buy more masculine style clothes and binders. When they want to be girly they just put on a dress and makeup and do their thing. They have their hair in a cute genderneutral hairstyle which works for whatever they wear. Be patient with trying to figure yourself out because it does take time.