OK, so long story short - a few months ago I joined this forum while in a phase of questioning my gender. I thought I might be trans, and started identifying as such on here and other websites. It felt pretty right at first and I very seriously considered transitioning, but then after a few weeks, I started thinking otherwise, and for a while was perfectly happy being male with a male body. Then again, I started getting confusing feelings, and came back to this site, again IDing as trans. But again, those feelings faded and I dismissed the idea completely. I've been self-reflecting away from sites like these for a little while, and now it's much clearer to me. I am now very happily identifying as non-binary. The closest term to describe my experience would be genderfluid, but I prefer the term non-binary for myself. It gives me the freedom to just be me and not worry about what anyone thinks, and I'm not expected to fit into either box, when I know my preferences will shift over time. About a week ago, I talked to my girlfriend about it. I told her about how I feel more comfortably identifying as NB, not strictly male or female, and she was incredible supportive. She told me I could do anything I liked, whatever made me happy, and she would love me anyway. :3 It was amazing and I'm very happy I have her. And then two days ago, I told my teammates. They were incredibly supportive and happy for me. I'm not surprised, one of them is non-binary themselves and another is dating a NB person, but it was still lovely to have them know. So there we have it. I am now "out" to everyone who really matters to me, employing an open-closet policy for everyone else. I'm here, non-binary, and finally not worrying about my bloody gender.
