I have a complicated story to tell. For those of you who feel like reading a complicated story and want to give out any advice, feel welcome I was raised by a mother who behaved more like a father. She dressed like a man (which is fine), but she was also loud, violent, and a bully to me and my dad (who was more like the silent submissive type). This has caused confusion since I can remember. I was never very gender-defined either, but I did not want to "become my mom" (because of her shitty example). So I thought I just had to accept my 'femininity'. But the thing is, I hate 'femininity'. Some days, that particularly translates to hating my own body to the point where I wish I could get rid of three particularly obnoxious body parts. But also, I don't think I would be comfortable being a guy. I feel more like an "it", genderfluid, neither man nor woman, yet both at the same time. I have no idea how to deal with this newly ambiguous category. So I am wondering how other genderfluid people deal with it. Do you have any advice for me? Thanks.
You might have a look here: http://emptyclosets.com/forum/gende...9807-figuring-out-my-gender-identity-s.html#4 And you might remember its a process... so I'd say take your time... do a few things you like, and see how that makes you feel... like changing hair and clothing style a bit.. you might think about looking for a gender therapist... someone who has experience with gender matters, to guide you along the way... you might ask at the next lgbt centers near you for a referral or for counseling, for example... well and if you feel they are not helpful just look for another... hugs
