Hi there. Geez this is nerve wracking. I've never really talked to anyone about this. Let's start with a little about myself: I've always considered myself a "straight girl" - I'm biologically female and I like guys. I'm 20, in college, and have a boyfriend and two older sisters. I like sports and shopping for specific items - like sports equipment (and some other things, but I can't shop for super long like my mom and sisters can). Ever since I was old enough to have a say, I've worn boys clothes. Basketball shorts, hats, tee shirts, sweatshirts - hell, even my shoes are men's shoes. I played hockey and playground games with the kids in my neighborhood/class growing up. Mostly I like "guy things" but I collect stuffed animals and went to Magic Mike with some of my girl friends, too. I've always been called a tomboy. But I'm not sure that's the case. I'm jealous of guys because I'm not one of them. It still bothers me, but I've accepted it to some degree, too. I think what I want at this point in my life is to cut my hair, do something about my boobs (cuz damn, I can't even hide them under a baggy tee shirt and sometimes not even a sweatshirt anymore, it sucks so much), and be seen as a guy to strangers. Now if I talk to people, and to my friends and family, I want to be a girl, at least right now. I'm okay with being "Daddy's little girl." So I guess I don't really want to change anything too drastically. More like, test the waters. But at the same time, I know that if I go through with that much and I like it, I'll do more. I'll consider a gender neutral name, I'll continue taking baby steps towards transitioning. How far I'll go, I'm not sure. Point is, I have no idea what I am. I'm pretty sure I'm not a "straight female" anymore (or that I ever was). I've always been supportive of the LGBT community but I've never really been part of it - or at least, I never considered myself a part of it. I think I do now, but there are so many new "labels" (do you guys have a better word for that?) and I can't figure out what I am. I think maybe gender fluid because I can definitely be girly too, but I'm not sure if it's entirely right because I know I'd rather be a guy, and I feel like I am a lot of the time, but I don't think I'm really transgender either. I want to try to figure out what I am so I have a word for it before I try to explain it to anyone. Can anyone help me out? What term or terms might apply to me? Thank you so much!
You could be demi-boy. A demiguy is someone who only partially (not wholly) identifies as a boy or man, whatever their assigned gender at birth. They may or may not identify as another gender in addition to feeling partially a boy or man. I think labels is a good word for it though most people just call them gender identities. I had that same mindset to, that I feel like a guy but not wholly, there I couldn't possibly be transgender. Thing is transgender is just an umbrella for anyone who doesn't identify with their biological gender.
that was the hardest question i had. ever since i was old enough to really be interested on boys or girls i knew i liked girls but i always felt more like a girl than a boy. that is also one of the main reasons i have only come out to one person is because i am terrified people either wont believe me because i like girls. i guess i figured out what i was a long time ago just had to admit it to my self and for me i know that was one of the hardest parts.
Thank you guys for the responses! "Demiguy" is an amusing one because it makes me think of "demigod," which is kind of cool :icon_bigg Guess that might help me feel better about telling people, if mentally I'm thinking demigod haha. But demiguy does sound about right for me. I've been trying to slip in comments about various LGBT topics to my boyfriend so that I'll feel more comfortable and it will be less out of the blue whenever I eventually tell him. Hopefully he'll understand that nothing has actually changed about me... I do think he may already suspect based off past conversations, but we'll see. Thank you so much!
