Don't Mind Being Male Most of the Time... But Then....

Well, wanting female clothes is about gender expression, not gender identity. You can be cis-male and wear a dress. However, hating masculinity is another thing. I don't really know what that means on its own. Do you ever consciously want to be female? Do you get dysphoria (not required, but a good sign)? Dreaming about being female can be significant, because it is unconscious thought. Then again, I am always genderless in my dreams, so it's not a perfect sign.

 

Just a reminder: there are feminine men and masculine women.

Wearing female clothing is one thing. Dreaming about being a female is another. Think of living the rest of your life as a typical male. Now think of living the rest of your life as a typical female. Does one of these seem more appealing to you? Does both, or neither?

How long have these thoughts been going on for?

 

I don't think dreams always mean something. I dreamt of being a little boy and I felt comfortable being a boy in that dream, doesn't mean I'm trans.

 

If you experience dysphoria and consistently consider yourself to be something other than your birth sex, then you are trans(*) in some way. That's literally the medical textbook definition of being transgender. (Not that the first one is actually necessary, it's just that if you have both, you're probably trans(*).) It sounds like you are probably not 100% transgender, because you like being male. What about androgynous, as a gender identity? Does that strike a chord?

 

Umm have you tried the term Bigender yet? Ive recently been feeling the same way, so Ive just tried binding my chest when I feel like it and wearing male clothing when it suits me just to see if it feels comfortable, and wearing female clothes (Im biologically female) other times... You coukd try male/female pronouns and see how that feels for you too... Bigender is bing able to change genders at different times, for example you could want to be/be female today and male in a few days if you get what I mean... Some bigender people have one predominant gender that they hold most of the time... Im still working it out myself, but I hope this helps...