Uh, I said genderfluids because I'm suspecting I am one, but if you think you can help me out it doesn't really matter what you are(!)(!) Lately, after saying "oh no I'm definitely cis" for a while, I've been questioning my gender. Deciding what my sexuality is was quite easy for me so I thought this would be as well. Well, I was wrong... I just don't know anything. I'm assigned female at birth, and really, I don't have any problem with my lady parts. But sometimes I just really, really wish I had a penis. But even on those days I don't "hate" my lady parts, I just think I wouldn't mind if my body suddenly changed. Recently I watched Ruby Rose's video about genderfluidity and really liked it, it kinda made me wanna purchase a strap on and experiment haha. The question is: how do I know? How do I know if it's just a lil thought and it doesn't play a role in my gender? Because the other day I talked to a friend and she said(she's cis) she wished she had a penis sometimes because it'd be fun. Idk if mine is something like that. I mean as a child I sometimes wished I was a boy but that was because I had long hair and hated combing it and all the boys had short hair and I just thought how much easier that was lol. HOW THE HELL DID YOU UNDERSTAND? What does it even feel like? I'm so confused that it's really ridiculous.
I feel the same. I like my girl body and I identify as female but I sometimes wish I were a boy and it would be so cool waking up as one hahaha. I also sometimes feel like a boy but still identify as female. I know nothing.
At first I thought I was gender fluid but I don't usually have those female/girl or whatever days. It was all usually male things.
I kind of feel the same way, though i do kind of think I'm genderfluid, I'm always more on the edge of FTM. I feel like I'm more of the masculine-to-neutral side, if you look at gender as a spectrum.
I am genderfluid (assigned female at birth), but I identify as female the vast majority of the time, so I don't really talk about it much and haven't really felt the need to come out. You say you sometimes wish you had a penis, but do you think you could explain why? Is it just because it would be fun to experiment with (which is something a lot of cis girls think about), or do you actually feel like and want to be seen as a guy at those times? Even when I am certain I'm a girl I sometimes wonder what it would be like to have a penis, but on the occasional days where I feel more neutral or masculine, I can become pretty upset by my feminine features because when I look in the mirror I see a girl and I genuinely don't feel that that's what I am. Sometimes the thought is really distressing, others it just feels kind of weird lol. ( I hope that helped? )
@6amb I'm glad I found you then!! ahh my feelings exactly. we just don't know anything. so frustrating. @foreverlost I'm glad you figured it out! @dianox I think we should definitely look at gender as a spectrum. I'm glad you found what you feel like! @Ravienclaw I'm not sure if I'll be able to put it into words exactly but I'll give it a shot. Well, when I wish I had a penis it's more like a "if my body changed all of a sudden I wouldn't mind" kind of a way, like I don't know if I'd want to be seen as a guy at those times with my present body, but when I think 'what if I was born a male' then I'm like 'hey......nice....' but with my afab body I just don't know?? Maybe it's just that it's a new idea for me and I'm just not used to it. Can it be because of that? I don't know. I just really really wish I was born a guy nowadays haha. It did help btw, it helped me get the right questions in my head, thank you!
Update: I just saw some pictures of Tom Hardy(of you're wondering: 1, 2) and instead of my 'usual' reaction, which is to think about how hot he is, I just thought 'I wanna look like this why can't I look like this fml' I think the more I think about it, the better I understand my feelings. Being perceived as a guy would definitely be marvellous right now.
