I will try to make it short. I'm intersex trasngender (sesearch it up if you don't know what it is) I'm 18 years whole my life I lived as a girl but I always knew I wsd a boy. Until quite some time ago I started living as a boy but not with my parents and not with my family nor school or college. I live as a boy with people online. Here is the thing.. I'm a Muslim and it's tradional to wear a veil over a girls head and since I do I can't express my self to anyone. My parents doesn't accept me at all I cut my hair short and that's the reason Why I wore veil my mom doesn't want anyone to think I'm a boy since I'm an intersex and have a deep voice and such. Anyway back to the topic.. so since I wear a veil and I meet everyone with it through college I'm a girl for them though they are suspicious but my humor is helping me alot. But online I tell the person I am (we can't come out) I tell them as I'm a boy. And when they ask to meet me I have no problem I sound and look like a boy but I take off the veil and hide from my parents so they won't see me. So the thing is I'm living two lives as a girl with family and friends of college and as a boy with other friends. Not that I want that but it's because my parents wanted to kill me because I told them I sent tonlive as a boy... I feel I might get schysophrina from this. Idk that to do But I'm kinda patient.