Hi! So, uh... As for my sexuality I identify as pansexual because, like, I can be sexually attracted to people regardless of their gender or sex. The thing is, throughout my life, I've always sometimes found myself wishing I was a guy, in a relationship with a guy. Gay couples make me so so so jealous, I just wanna magically turn into a boy who and hit on a boy. Other than those moments I'm fine with being female(I'm afab). I thought I was genderfluid for a while but I don't think I am anymore. I just don't know. Has anyone experienced this? Am I just overthinking stuff?
Is it only a sexual thing? http://emptyclosets.com/forum/gender-identity-expression/129154-i-am-autoandrophile-anyone-else.html
Thank you for the link, it's nice to know there's a name for that! But no, it's not sexual, not at all. I don't get aroused from it. It's actually usually the romantic stuff that gets me, that makes me want to be with a guy, as a guy. Idk it seems so absurd hahah.
I get where you are coming from. Though I want everyone to see me as a gay guy, as well as to be with a guy as a guy.
I'm a transwoman that is the opposite, I /don't/ want to be a guy with a gay guy, but as a woman I'd like to be with a guy. Think it's a self image thing, though for you it seems like it leans into a jealousy aspect or a 'what if' thing rather than something you actually want longterm.
