Okay so for a few months I have been considering myself GenderFluid but for some reason I'm not happy with it so recently I decided to try and figure out what I see myself as... Well this has caused an extreme amount of pain... I've written three pages of things I do/Did/Thought/think that don't fit my Gender Role. I realized that all of my life I knew I was female but was always jealous of boys and didn't get why I couldn't do what they did and I also thought that girls had male genitalia so once I hit puberty I was kind of confused... I think the reason why I can't seem to accept myself being Female to Male is because a voice in my head is always telling me "You can't do that you're a girl... Girls don't do that..." but when someone calls me Handsome or Manly I automatically smile and feel better. I also love the idea of having facial hair and being able to walk around without a shirt it's something I wish I could do... Oh another thing is that sometimes I accidentally walk into the guys bathroom but I never knew why... Ugh I'm just confused and it's causing so much physical discomfort to even think about any gender at all...